Thursday, December 29, 2005
From bean to raspberry!
It is slowly becoming more real to me. Watching that little heart beat is just amazing. I tried not to cry, but I failed miserably...
My boobs have reached monumental soreness. And the constipation? Oy. Must drink more water..more more more. TMI, I know. But hey..this IS a pregnancy journal after all...and pregnancy ain't all roses all the time..even if it DOES feel like I am shitting thorns.. *sigh*
I still cannot get over how much I sleep. Although last night I got two hours, tops. I just could not get comfortable no matter what I did. Then I had all sorts of weird and unsettling dreams. So..it is nap time once again!
Oh..and for those interested, here's the latest shot of BabyHen!
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
We are so excited. We spent some time tonight reading about where we are at developmentally. It is just amazing.
Our estimated due date is August 14th, 2006.
I was telling my Mom earlier that I didn't know that the ultrasound would be vaginal...I am so glad that we didn't have sex this morning. Hah. Ok, gross and TMI.
(knocks on wood..HARD) No sickies yet. (knocks on wood, HARD, again just for good measure) I am amazed at my boobs. They hurt like a sumbitch..I am so..aware of them. I like the fullness of them. My Mom and my Gramma have sorta big boobs. I don't know why I got shortchanged in that department. So I am gonna enjoy this a bit LOL.
Oh, and I am just really tired. So with that I am off to bed. Thanks again. :O)
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
shock and awe :O)
The Doc said everything looks fine at this point. I am measuring in at 6 weeks 1 day. It is firmly implanted in a good spot in the ol' uterus. They did find a cyst near my cervix, but she said that is common...
I have a second ultrasound on December 29th, to make sure the bean is growing as it should. They are going to follow me through my first trimester, to make sure all is well before releasing me to an ob/gyn.
We could see its little heart beating.
I am in total awe of what is happening to us.
And I wish that people realized what miracles each and every one of us are. Maybe the world would be a better place?
Monday, December 19, 2005
I am excited...and nervous.
I hope everything is as it should be.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
She had to try four times, but it finally worked. She was getting nervous, at one point she said to me "You are making me sweat..." LOL
She said I am all scarred up from the previous blood draws I had done. I said "I guess it is a good thing I am not an IV drug user eh?" She chuckled and agreed.
Well,the docs office just called with my results. My hCG levels last Thursday were at 407, and today they are at 5124. Yessa!! She wanted to schedule an ultrasound for tomorrow, and I wanted to do it so very much. However, we are leaving at 6 a.m. tomorrow morning to head to Atlanta to the annual Christmas Party. Yay. That should be LOADS of fun. My sober self around all those drunks. I will have camera in hand. I have to amuse myself somehow.
Anyway, our first ultrasound to see the bug is scheduled for Tuesday at 1 p.m.
This is suddenly becoming more real to me. I am in awe of what is going on inside of me right now.
Monday, December 12, 2005
I was absolutely floored.
I have been going back and forth about whether to tell anyone or not. I am 5 weeks as of today. I realize this is still way early on. I refuse to think that if I tell people, or if I blog it, I will jinx myself.
That is how I felt at first. I just have way too much going on mentally to NOT blog about it. I was going to just blog and then save as a draft, and not publish it til later. But why? Why not just blog it? I am not harboring any negativity with this. I am pregnant, and I am going to try and make the most of it all, the good, the bad and the ugly. I have NOT posted about this on my other blog just yet. I am not sure if anyone from my blog actually checks here or not. If you are a regular Tikigirl reader...HI... LOL
I want to keep my pregnancy seperate. This will now be my pregnancy journal instead of my infertility journal. I did not want to post anything about this on tikigirl, because a friend reads the site, and she just lost her baby girl. I just could not in good conscience post over there. If she finds this here...then..well..not much I can do. I think she would be happy for me...but in the face of such an awful time in her life, I just couldn't...
So, yeah. I am pregnant. My Doc had told me that my diagnosis of PCOS was not severe, and that once I had lost some weight (with the help of some meds I was about to go on ) things would fall into place. I never got that far!
I do wish I had lost some weight first, as I am way overweight. I know it is not a good thing, but fat people have babies all the time, so I am not going to worry about it. It is what it is.
This place will be active for me. I have lots on my mind. But for now...sleep!!
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